Wow. It has been a long time since I've blogged. Let me catch you up...
It's been a crazy semester! After my not-so-boring summer in Nevada, I came back and signed up for more classes at William Woods. Let's just say I pulled out with 3.25 GPA and I'm pretty darn proud of it! This was, however, my last semester at WWU because I am deferring for a semester while I get situated back in Nevada! Missouri has been great, I just feel like I need to get out on my own for a bit.
What else is new? I sold Pat (my truck) and bought Cootsie...a Kia Sportage and I love her. She's so precious, I can't wait to take her out to Nevada.
I also have a few new hobbies: knife-throwing and playing on my ukulele! I'm pretty good at knife-throwing (my uncle calls me Annie Oakley) and I kinda suck at the ukulele...for now. Practice makes perfect, right?
So let's talk about Nevada. What am I thinking, right? I'm quitting school and moving to Vegas. Let me say that again...I'm quitting school...and moving to Vegas. Am I on drugs? Maybe. A few months ago, I just felt like I needed a change of scenery. I'm also 20 and I've never lived away from my parents. Nevada wasn't my first option, either (I was looking at schools in Denver, West Palm Beach, and Texas). Nevada just kind of fell into place so I'm taking that as a sign from God that I should be there for a while. However, my heart is broken right now because I have to leave my family. I'm so blessed to have a family that loves me and supports me. I love them all so much.
So I'm moving out there on January 3rd. It'll be the start of new chapter, and new year. I don't have "resolutions" but I definitely have some goals for my time in Nevada...
1. Join a freakin' gym! It's so cliche for my first goal to be to lose weight, but who cares...
2. Missions. Missions. Missions. WHY am I calling myself a Christian if I'm not living out my faith? C'mon Kinzi, you can do better.
3. $$$
4. Meet new people. And love them.
5. Have fun! I'm 20...I'm supposed to be having fun, right?
So here's to [another] new chapter in my life. I'm ready! I think...
December 30, 2011
July 26, 2011
July 12, 2011
Being beautiful is more than how many boys you can get to look at you or how much makeup you can wear. It’s about what you live for. It’s about what defines you. It’s about the heart that you have and what makes you special. It’s about those little quirks that make you, you. It’s about knowing that you are a creation of God, created in His image. It’s about shining for Him, no matter what else is going on around you. It’s about going against the flow and living out what you honestly think. And that is a beautiful thing.
June 27, 2011
June 8, 2011
Okay. So right now, I want to talk (or write) about a topic that is kind of touchy for me. It's not something I liked to talk about a whole lot because, to be honest, I was scared that people would see me as different. Different might not be the right word...I like being different. So let me rephrase that and say that I was scared that people would see me as a prude.
Yep, prude.
I'm 20 years old, and I've never been kissed.
I was never really into the dating scene. I never actually started to show an interest in anyone until at least my junior year in high school. Even then, I kept my interests under wraps because the dating scene scared me. Not the kind of scared where I wanted to hide under my bed, but scared/nervous...like the feeling I get before I have to make a speech or something. Ick. So, in high school, it felt like everyone around me was "with" someone and "hooking up" with someone. And when someone would ask me "who are you intersted in?" or "have you hooked up with anyone?" I said no, but felt embarrassed that they would see me as prude. So one night, while playing a game or truth or dare, someone asked me who my first kiss was. Unknown to them, I never had my first kiss...so I lied. I told everyone that I hooked up with some boy a few years ago and they believed it. Since I'm being honest, I'll be honest and say it felt good when people believed it and thought I had experience in that area. But, since I'm being honest, I'll be honest and say I regretted that dumb lie ever since.
*sigh* Lets move on to my senior year in high school and I still felt the pressure of being a prude. I kept telling myself, "Okay Kinzi, this is your year. You're gonna get your first kiss. You won't be a prude anymore!" So when this boy started to show an interest in me, I caved. Even though I knew in my gut that God was telling me that it wasn't right to date then, I started dating. It was a big deal when I starting holding his hand, sitting with him on the couch, going on silly little dates with him...but I wasn't kissing him, although I could tell he wanted to. He would ask for a kiss in subtle ways, but I ignored them. So when we "broke up" not even three months later, I was back to square one.
It was after that that people started with the prude jokes. I'm not going to lie, they hurt and I may have even cried after a few of them. The jokes and the pressure of being a prude broke me...I became extremely self-conscious.
Something that is really sad to me is that in today's society, being a virgin has become so incredibly taboo. You rarely hear about people waiting until they're married...some people even see losing their virginity as a goal for the year or whatever. So if people are so ridiculed for being a virgin, think about someone my ago who has yet to be kissed.
It wasn't even until a few months ago that I started to pride myself on being a prude. I started to seek satisfaction and love from where it matters the most...in the arms of God. So, I'm proud of myself for "keeping my pants zipped" and I'm proud that hooking up isn't my thing. And as of right now, boyfriends and dating aren't on my agenda. But God has a plan for me. And I believe that because I have remained pure, God will reward me with the perfect man. The man that I have always dreamed of marrying.
God is writing my love story ♥
Yep, prude.
I'm 20 years old, and I've never been kissed.
I was never really into the dating scene. I never actually started to show an interest in anyone until at least my junior year in high school. Even then, I kept my interests under wraps because the dating scene scared me. Not the kind of scared where I wanted to hide under my bed, but scared/nervous...like the feeling I get before I have to make a speech or something. Ick. So, in high school, it felt like everyone around me was "with" someone and "hooking up" with someone. And when someone would ask me "who are you intersted in?" or "have you hooked up with anyone?" I said no, but felt embarrassed that they would see me as prude. So one night, while playing a game or truth or dare, someone asked me who my first kiss was. Unknown to them, I never had my first kiss...so I lied. I told everyone that I hooked up with some boy a few years ago and they believed it. Since I'm being honest, I'll be honest and say it felt good when people believed it and thought I had experience in that area. But, since I'm being honest, I'll be honest and say I regretted that dumb lie ever since.
*sigh* Lets move on to my senior year in high school and I still felt the pressure of being a prude. I kept telling myself, "Okay Kinzi, this is your year. You're gonna get your first kiss. You won't be a prude anymore!" So when this boy started to show an interest in me, I caved. Even though I knew in my gut that God was telling me that it wasn't right to date then, I started dating. It was a big deal when I starting holding his hand, sitting with him on the couch, going on silly little dates with him...but I wasn't kissing him, although I could tell he wanted to. He would ask for a kiss in subtle ways, but I ignored them. So when we "broke up" not even three months later, I was back to square one.
It was after that that people started with the prude jokes. I'm not going to lie, they hurt and I may have even cried after a few of them. The jokes and the pressure of being a prude broke me...I became extremely self-conscious.
Something that is really sad to me is that in today's society, being a virgin has become so incredibly taboo. You rarely hear about people waiting until they're married...some people even see losing their virginity as a goal for the year or whatever. So if people are so ridiculed for being a virgin, think about someone my ago who has yet to be kissed.
It wasn't even until a few months ago that I started to pride myself on being a prude. I started to seek satisfaction and love from where it matters the most...in the arms of God. So, I'm proud of myself for "keeping my pants zipped" and I'm proud that hooking up isn't my thing. And as of right now, boyfriends and dating aren't on my agenda. But God has a plan for me. And I believe that because I have remained pure, God will reward me with the perfect man. The man that I have always dreamed of marrying.
God is writing my love story ♥
May 30, 2011
These are a few of my favorite things ♥
Color: Green.
Food: Pasta.
Candy: Ferrero Rocher & WarHeads.
Season: Fall.
Movie: Wild America & The Human Experience.
Artist: Norah Jones or Whitley.
Place(s): The top of Mt. Charleston, Screamin' Johnnie's, & Hume Lake.
Book: [Besides the Bible] Fearless by Max Lucado & Bohemian Manifesto.
Activity: Kayaking, drawing, photography.
Color: Green.
Food: Pasta.
Candy: Ferrero Rocher & WarHeads.
Season: Fall.
Movie: Wild America & The Human Experience.
Artist: Norah Jones or Whitley.
Place(s): The top of Mt. Charleston, Screamin' Johnnie's, & Hume Lake.
Book: [Besides the Bible] Fearless by Max Lucado & Bohemian Manifesto.
Activity: Kayaking, drawing, photography.
May 19, 2011
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
— Mother Teresa ♥
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
— Mother Teresa ♥
January 15, 2011
So far, this year has been amazing! I kicked off the new year by driving down to Springfield to see my old friends! I love being closer to them. While in Springfield, I picked up Tracy from the airport and we drove back to Columbia! We had a good time. I took her up to Hannibal so she could see my hometown (I just wish it wasn't so cold) and she also went to WWU's orientation with Kiki and I.
Speaking of William Woods, classes started last Thursday! To be honest, I wasn't super excited about it. Not that I was bummed about it, either, it was just "whatever." If I want to survive this semester with good grades, I figured I should start by changing my attitude towards my school. I'm just here to get my basics out of the way, then I'm off to a bigger, more film-centered University. Maybe Pepperdine? Until then, it's William Woods that I'll stay!
Confession time. I have totally been slacking on my bible reading. No excuses, Kinzi! I want to go on a Facebook fast...I spend way too much time on Facebook and not enough time with Jesus. However, I find myself praying all the time. Just talking with Jesus, telling him about my day, asking for help and praying for other people. While I was waiting for Kiki's class to get done, I found an empty classroom so I helped myself to a desk and prayed in the dark. I'm sure it looked weird if anyone saw me, but oh well. Praying is my escape.
So excited for what's to come this year. I'm going to Palm Beach for spring break to see Faith! I can't believe I'm just now going to see her in Florida. And for the summer? I'm going to Vegas! Tracy and Tucker are postponing their move to Virginia, so I have some of the summer with them! I'm also so excited to see my family, I miss them so much!
That's it for now. It's time for me to snuggle up with my Zoe bug and watch some Lost. Oh Sawyer, you are one fine piece of meat ;)
Goodnight!
Speaking of William Woods, classes started last Thursday! To be honest, I wasn't super excited about it. Not that I was bummed about it, either, it was just "whatever." If I want to survive this semester with good grades, I figured I should start by changing my attitude towards my school. I'm just here to get my basics out of the way, then I'm off to a bigger, more film-centered University. Maybe Pepperdine? Until then, it's William Woods that I'll stay!
Confession time. I have totally been slacking on my bible reading. No excuses, Kinzi! I want to go on a Facebook fast...I spend way too much time on Facebook and not enough time with Jesus. However, I find myself praying all the time. Just talking with Jesus, telling him about my day, asking for help and praying for other people. While I was waiting for Kiki's class to get done, I found an empty classroom so I helped myself to a desk and prayed in the dark. I'm sure it looked weird if anyone saw me, but oh well. Praying is my escape.
So excited for what's to come this year. I'm going to Palm Beach for spring break to see Faith! I can't believe I'm just now going to see her in Florida. And for the summer? I'm going to Vegas! Tracy and Tucker are postponing their move to Virginia, so I have some of the summer with them! I'm also so excited to see my family, I miss them so much!
That's it for now. It's time for me to snuggle up with my Zoe bug and watch some Lost. Oh Sawyer, you are one fine piece of meat ;)
Goodnight!
January 1, 2011
The Perfect Lyric ♥
Till He returns or calls me home, here in the power of Christ I'll stand ♥
I get goosebumps everytime I listen to it!
Oh, and happy new year! As soon as it hit midnight, I prayed with my Mom and Dad. I prayed mainly for protection of my family, friends and our country. I prayed for opportunities and I prayed that my family won't have to struggle financially anymore. I feel good about 2011!
I won't list all of my resolutions, but I would like to share a few:
1. (Obviously) Get fit, be more active, maybe shed a few pounds. Who doesn't want that?
2. Learn sign language. My mom is a deaf interpreter and I would really love for her to teach me so I could eventually use it at church or something. ASL might also come in handy when I go on missions trips and stuff.
3. Not worry so much! It's giving me worry wrinkles.
4. Sounds far-fetched, but I would really love to write a book and get it published.
5. Not watch R-rated movies.
Anywho, that's all I'm gonna list for now. I hope 2010 was as amazing for you as it was for me. I am blessed and that's all there is to say! Lovelovelove.
I get goosebumps everytime I listen to it!
Oh, and happy new year! As soon as it hit midnight, I prayed with my Mom and Dad. I prayed mainly for protection of my family, friends and our country. I prayed for opportunities and I prayed that my family won't have to struggle financially anymore. I feel good about 2011!
I won't list all of my resolutions, but I would like to share a few:
1. (Obviously) Get fit, be more active, maybe shed a few pounds. Who doesn't want that?
2. Learn sign language. My mom is a deaf interpreter and I would really love for her to teach me so I could eventually use it at church or something. ASL might also come in handy when I go on missions trips and stuff.
3. Not worry so much! It's giving me worry wrinkles.
4. Sounds far-fetched, but I would really love to write a book and get it published.
5. Not watch R-rated movies.
Anywho, that's all I'm gonna list for now. I hope 2010 was as amazing for you as it was for me. I am blessed and that's all there is to say! Lovelovelove.
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